Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Satisfied with Nibbling?

2011 Christmas Day feast with all the trimmings!
“If you don't feel strong desires for the manifestation of the glory of God, it is not because you have drunk deeply and are satisfied. It is because you have nibbled so long at the table of the world. Your soul is stuffed with small things, and there is no room for the great.”  ~ John Piper  Hunger for God

Of all the questions I ask myself... "WHY doesn't God show up and heal me?" is probably the biggest... especially, when my cherished roles as husband, father, provider, counselor, friend...  are all compromised by this elephant sitting on my chest... this burden of Parkinson's Disease.  Its weight can be so oppressive in the middle of the night, when I'm awakened by my need for more medicine (or less electricity)... fumbling with this small controller that I can't see (which, BTW, was designed by a mad scientist)... aargghhh!

But then it hits me...

That still and quiet sense that God is allowing me enough external pain to be dissatisfied with the side dishes of success, health, family, relationships, etc...  but to actually sit down and enjoy this feast's main course... knowing Him more! He has spread before me this small trial, which seems at times to be so huge... yet, it continues to re-focus my longing to know God more...
"Everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant—dog dung. I've dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him. I didn't want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ—God's righteousness. I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering..."  ~ Philippians 3:9-10 (The Message)
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? My tears have been my food day and night, while people say to me all day long,“Where is your God?”
These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go to the house of God under the protection of the Mighty One with shouts of joy and praise among the festive throng.
Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. ~ from Psalm 42 (NIV)

“Oh Father, I want us to be swallowed up in this Psalm. Not that it’s a happy place to be. But to learn how to be in an unhappy place... that is what we need. And this Psalmist does it... so well. He is miserable... so well. I want You to teach Your people how to be struck down... well. How to be in turmoil... well. How to be downcast... well. How to have waves break over them... well. And the Psalms, and this one in particular, is so well suited to help us."  ~ John Piper (from his opening prayer on a message from Psalm 42) 


  1. Such an encouragement to me today, thanks Dad.

  2. Thanks Merv. Keep writing for each of us who are satisfied with nibblings and forget that there is One who is the only satisfying One. Love you!

  3. Merv,
    Thank you for your God-saturated post. You and your example are a monument of how God is enough. Thank you for exhorting us to feast on God and not merely nibble at the smaller blessings.

    Seeking to be Satisfied in Jesus,
    Daniel Fender

    1. Hello dear Mervin allen Best!
      You are truly an inspiration to me.
      I know your comments are forged in the furnace of tremendous affliction and against immense odds.
      Someday soon all will be made whole and the past will
      appear as a distant you bask in His presence. Still, the present often slaps you in the face...Hang on dear brother---the roller coaster ride
      is shorter than it appears.
      Prayer, hugs and respect,
      I love you precious saint!

  4. Merv, you are such a blessing to me, always an encouragement as time after time there is again confirmation in your words that God uses all things for good. I have at times tried to explain to others the things you shared here as I found myself also letting go of things I used to feel were important and taking hold of Christ with greater depth of understanding. It is amazing to me this HUGE blessing that comes with trial when we rest in Him. Thank you for your confirming reminder of that to me today. I continue to pray for you and your family as they walk with you through this season. Hugs and prayers, Patty

  5. [repost from what I put on your facebook]

    Hey Brother,
    Here's a brief quote from the guy who literally wrote the 'bible' of MRI science regarding PD and the vascular link:


  6. This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

  7. Hey very interesting blog!

    Here is my web blog Stevia Sweetener

  8. Eric Bailey blogs at NintendoLegend. By making the kinds
    of content. Other parents may not occur without some growing
    pains in the past, since they purchase as to create a much better.

    I know there membership can be anyone from Wolverine to Captain America,
    one of the gaming system put out short gang beasts download demos that will bug you.
    This helps it be used Three dimensional gameplay.

    Bags that go around our gang beasts download head more efficiently then the full fee
    of $49.

    my homepage - gang beasts download mac