Saturday, January 29, 2011

I'm Left Speechless...

Remembering earlier weddings
Another wedding!
These past few months, it seems that during every wedding I've attended, I've been able to rally my brain cells for at least a 2-3 hour push... and then afterward, I sometimes crashing big time, but it's well worth the effort!

I'm doing fine on the way there... A little tweaky (involuntary motions) but doing great... half way through the ceremony now... oh, oh, it's time for meds (every 3 hours round the clock, remember?)... I try to tell Clara that I am going to slip into the rest room here at the church, and that I'll be back shortly... but that's not what came out... 10 minutes before end of the ceremony... WHAM! "Parks" takes over...

Oh no, I CAN'T speak...
Now, I may look normal from the outside (cuz I'm not tremoring) but I feel very NOT normal on the inside... I'm overheating, it's too loud so I can't think straight, I can barely put three intelligent words together, I'm all of a sudden needing to sit down... oh, I want so bad to just talk to the many friends

So here I am, sitting in the car...
So many around to talk with... So many familiar faces... But, I forgot to reserve my body and brain before "Parks" did... I was so looking forward to catching up with everyone..
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2 Corinthians 12:8-10
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

"No sin is worse than the sin of self pity, because it removes God from the throne of our lives, replacing Him with our own self interests. It causes us to open our mouths only to complain, and we simply become spiritual sponges - - always absorbing, never giving and never being satisfied. And there is nothing lovely or generous about our lives."  Oswald Chambers  

2 comments:

  1. So sorry you had a crash time during the wedding. Sure love you pops. Thanks for keeping your eyes on the word, what an example you are to me.

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